Have you ever shed tears because your art didn't turn out the way you wanted it to?...then you're an artist.
Have you ever gotten angry over your art?...then you're an artist.
Have you ever torn up your art in frustration?...then you're an artist.
Have you ever burned a painting in anger?...then you're an artist.
Have you ever quit being an artist?...then you're an artist - face it.
Have you ever been defensive of your art?...then you're an artist.
Ever purposely hid your art?...then you're an artist.
Had a temper tantrum over your art?... you're an artist.
Felt like you'll never be as good as _________?...you're an artist.
Wish you were appreciated for your creative contributions?...sounds like an artist.
If you answered yes to any of the questions above you my friend are an artist - deal with it. You cry because you care. You're anger will make you better because you have a vision of what it could have been - should have been. Your passion fuels you to push on - push past. Your fear is motivating. Your emotions are a result of your desire. You are learning to speak a visual language. You may stray but were meant to create. You have a calling.
I was never the best. I am not the best. I almost got kicked out of my college illustration program. I later taught in the same program. I don't draw as well as some of my students. I cringe at the piece above and remember the feelings of disappointment because it didn't turn out half as well as the vision in my mind of a cool family portrait. I'm glad I can laugh at it now - you can too - we learn by doing. Doing and failing and doing and failing...and failing again but learning from our failures.
This process should be taught in public schools. It's not. It's a beautiful natural way to learn. The reason we struggle is because we've not been taught to embrace this process. We take it personally when we fail.
I have cried, gotten angry, yelled, torn up, quit, and shed tears over my art. I was never content. I am not content. I won't be content. I love what I do. I love sharing what I do. Do you?
I am an artist and so are you.